Challenge spawns growth. But does challenge always mean change? Yes and no. Depends on how you define change. Change of perception? Change in location in where you live?
For the past few months I've been forced to contemplate change. STRAIGHT FORCED, AKA LAID OFF FORCED. My whole life defines change actually. Parents divorcing, remarrying, moving, moving out, moving in, college, moving out of state, and back home. Change is what I'm use to, and I thought I would always be OK with change, location change that is. Until now.
Being an ambitious and responsible individual, I've always been able to land on my feet. So naturally when getting laid off, I jump on my resume and get the job search rolling. And what do you know, after a month I have TWO AWESOME job offers...out of state. I've lived in this place before, so naturally I'm like YEAH, LETS GO!! However when I started to get moving quotes and communicating with a property manager to rent out my FIRST HOME that I absolutely love, something hit me. It could be a combination of things hitting me at this time in my life actually. That, and at 30, a lot is happening with you AND your friends and family around you. People are getting married, having kids, divorcing, buying homes, slowing down. Around this age you start to think more strategically, and about what's really important in life. How many times do you just want to up and move and start over?! If you ask me I've done it too many fucking times.
WHY is this change being forced upon me at this time? WHY am I being presented with great jobs out of state?! Am I supposed to go there? WHY is my life trying to make a hard left turn right now?! I do feel the universe tries to guide you, to put you in certain places at certain times. But I also feel the universe challenges you, so you will take the courage to challenge yourself, to challenge THEIR want. Follow me??
The past couple of months have been extremely fun and extremely stressful. But I finally feel like I've felt what it feels like to LIVE. That might sound crazy if you know me, because I've had the wonderful opportunity to visit beautiful places such as Thailand and Bora Bora. However, living in the moment, of day to day not knowing what will happen, is such an interesting feeling. A feeling that I have learned to love and desire more of.
So you know what I choose? CHANGE. Not in location, but in state of mind. I am changing the way I live, the way I look at this world. And you know what, it feels amazing and is a lot of damn fun!!!
I challenge you, to look at your life. Are you happy? Are you living the LIFE you want to live and be remembered for?
