Subway Thoughts

The heart has deep trenches and deep tunnels that we often travel

With as deep as we’re digging shouldn’t we help each other out

I see you

and I feel you

And I know you feel me too

These layers

That others built

I can see and feel right through them

And I know you can too

Connect

Feel

Progress

Love

Grow

It’s what we’re here to do

Hungry

Hardships sharpen teeth
Ready to sink into what I haven't tasted
I'm starving for what I've always wanted
I want to find it now
Nothing else is what I want to know

Reflections

Safety in solace
Piercing privacy
Calms the cold

Warming the heart
Crazies the cautious
Fueling fire

Loving Life
Sweetens the sour
Illuminating love

Haze

In the midst of haze
Chaos
We find ourselves
Direction in circles
Direction is found
Waves straighten us
Motion sharpens us
Pebbled roads 

Smooth under our feet

She

When you're in no rush to get to the shore
The tides roll together
Softly
But vigorously
They connect and go hand in hand
As if they're taking each other to the finish line
Moments stop
But are full
Slowly
In depth in touch in friction
As they carry each other home

Choices

Does deceptive companionship outweigh loneliness

Is the ambiguity of silence more comfortable than the weight of heavy tension

Is anyone honest anymore

We all crave to be understood yet do not know how to reach to be felt

Our innermost desires scare us more than anything

Can we fix it

The world needs us all to provide our magic touch

In A Flash

Where did it start if it never really began

A whirlwind, I never thought this could've been the end

Flashing lights cover dim bulbs
Bulbs fragile like entering a new world
Comfort cracking breaks our familiar peace
Bulbs dropping breaking us into exposed pieces
Enduring the awkward always trumps defeat
Candy stores sometimes, they're just too damn sweet

L3VE

When you realize it's love we're all searching for 

It's all that we need 

And it's all out there 

If we just choose to see
-me

Poetry

I love being lazy but it makes me sad

I hate being busy but it makes me glad

Long days and long nights got me feeling all mad

But I look in the mirror and it's all I've ever had 

Right ones and wrong ones at the same damn time

I realize I got some strong sunshine 

Numbness and the clouds give me a great pause 

Progression is what I want but I'm all wrapped up in gauze 

My speed was controllable

I could handle what I ate

Now I'm consumed

Cruise control on and I can't find the brakes

Toxicity in my veins

Sometimes it's a little too much on my brain

Is this what it's supposed to feel like

I'm drowning in my own pool of pain

Enjoying the fruits

Is nothing like the work it takes to make it through

Powerful

Tenacious

Clouded

Is it worth giving up all I know

And love

For the freedom my soul wants to choose to grow

Rainbows on the horizon set sparkle in my eyes 

movement in my hips make me realize

It's quite easy to make it change

And Dollars come quick 

How much will I sacrifice

How many grams of my soul am I losing in the meantime to make it in this race

It's so quick

Poem

These words stitch up my wounds
This scar freshly reminds me of what I never want to get into

I'm thankful for the pain
So I can be sure history doesn't repeat itself
I'm in a different state
And frame

I'll always be the me you knew
But meeting you made me realize how much more I needed
We grew

Apart

It was a start
In another direction
Another chapter
I realized it wasn't me you were really after

Light in my face and wind at my back
I've finally realized where I was lack

It was you

I deserved more but was slack
Not sure you even realized how much I had your back

But I'm actually thankful for you
Even today I still smile when I think of you

You gave me growth and fine tuned my vision
Losing you has been the best gift of precision

Thoughts.

As close as you are far
As close to you like the double lid on a mason jar

Your eyes tell me you'll never leave
Yet the distance at times proves you have much more to see
You're morphing into the beautiful butterfly you were meant to be
Slowly to flap away from my heart as if you touched down to rest your wings

How far are you into your bloom I wonder

I fear you may go too soon
But I cannot help but embrace
How it feels to love you is such an amazing place

Please prove me wrong

Our roots are undeniable
Beautiful roots
Connected in past lives
Yet to understand our fruits

I want to keep you
I love you
I want you
I need you
But as good as it feels from my place
I can't wait to feel the same reciprocated embrace

I'm not afraid to stand alone in love
I just wish I didn't have to